Hi! We’ve been gone for quite a while now (like 8 months) , mostly operating on instagram ( which you should follow us at to stay updated @jawbreaker.zine ). I have been feeling pretty unmotivated when it comes to the site and decided to do an overhaul to the website as a kind of refresh!

All of the articles are still up so if you have anything published here or have a fave post, you’ll still be able to access it.

We are currently working a beautiful project called Veil that i’m hoping to put my whole soul into, but thats tiring and stressful and frustrating blah blah blah but its also fun and new and I’m learning so much. It’s all about feeling and vulnerability and honestly what it means to be you, a soul, a human. I kind of wanted to capture the feeling of sonder ("the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own") kind of make something where you can see yourself as complex as you are in something made by someone else and think “oh hey someone completely separate from me thinks like/is experiencing this too”….also to make something that makes you actually take into account what you are thinking and feeling. I’m not sure if this is just me because I’m an Aquarius sun, but I often find myself not even aware of myself. Like I don’t know how I’m feeling half the time, (my best friend is constantly noticing something is wrong with me before I do). I don’t know how to describe my personality (fun fact: once, I actually stayed up all night stressed out because I couldn’t think of 10 words to describe myself to put on a poster). Yea um I’m not self aware at all lol. Quarantine kind of made me realize how I really don’t know why I like certain things, what I feel , how to process what I feel, who I am, who I want to be. etc. Honestly the last two aren’t that important and are kind of overhyped questions but anyways…

do you think that knowing who you are is important?

yes

nah

why or why not?

tldr: I wanted to make something that made you feel something and its hard lmao

anyways what have you been up to? what have you been loving? what have you found out about yourself? any major things that happen? any small things that are keeping you sane?

what have you been loving?

what have you found out about yourself?

any major things happen?

any small things that are keeping you sane?

this ones real important

I’ll start…

I have been LOVING sweets! I love baking even though I don’t do it enough lol……tbh I don’t do enough of what I love…… honestly who the heck does? animal crossing (lets be friends!!), manga, oddly runway shows, rotten mango (the podcast lol), and other things I’m sure. I’ll probably make a list of recommendations later.
I found out that I actually can do things that make me happy WOW who would’ve thunk… :{ I found out I’m more resilient that I thought. I also found out that I have an annoying quirk where I start a show get SUPER close to finishing and then I just…don’t like… who am I??? I’m currently on series like 20 lol !!! also rediscovered my love for reading. I was a huge bookworm as a kid. (this cycle of my life has just been retreating to the things I loved asa kid. who am I kidding im still a kid.
major things happened: I turned 20…don’t know how to feel. 2020 kind of didn’t happen so. woah im not a teenager lol. I started learning two languages! super happy about that! I put time into myself! super happy about that! working on my hobbies! super happy about that. I don’t have any space or anything to distract me from my problems! not as happy about that :D ... :< but I’m learning to be. almost shaved my eyebrows off...
little things keeping me sane: cat photos/vids, learning new things, mood boarding, Tumblr, music, looking at my tattoo and letting it take me back to the string of memories that came with it, anime nights with the boys (my siblings), listening to music I loved growing up and loving it again, writing down my dreams after sleeping, dreaming of my future, facetimes with Lila, randomly calling old friends (I’m a terrible texter tho. if you need me call me), strawberries and grapefruit, sitting outside, recording little happy moments, journaling in general, trying new recipes, and then making the ones I fall in love with until I can’t eat them anymore.

This was a lot but if you made time to check in with me and yourself, I love you and I hope you’re making time for yourself and what you love.

cheyenne

xoxo

(unrelated but the title + this font makes me feel like an alien sending a report to my mothership lol)

Update June 2021